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11:37am 26/08/2006
  So as many of you will have no doubt figured out by now,I dont really go on this LJ... ever.

But if you still want drama gossip and random insights from yours truly please feel free to go to www.okizeme.com

Yes, its my blog, yes I relise its over done and have a url dedicated to a journal is pretentious, but nonetheless, gaurantee www.okizeme.com will satifys your EVERY need.		  
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03:51pm 10/01/2006
  alright.

Last night des and I broke up.

We agreed that she would go live with her mom, and I would stay here. I would get Ewu and her Puck and monstey.


But today I just couldnt do it. I relised I really couldnt live without her. But heres the thing. We DID break up. That relationship is over. We got a point where fighting was all we did, we stopped doing the small things that mattered. And we were both unhappy.


Its gone forever.

But you know what, heres the good part.

I happy to say I now have a girlfriend.

Her name is Des.


Confused? Its ok.

Des and now going out again. But we didnt get back together. Instead, what we've decided to do is start anew. We are now in a new relationship.


So now we're going to go on our first date.

To eat of course, and i think I know the perfect place.


PS.

To everyone, thank you so much for being so helpful last night. I would though, like to single out three specific people.

1. Is Noski, dude. As always, you saved my ass.
2. Is Daniel, your council allowed Des and I to talk together without tears and relise what was wrong with our old relationship so that we may forge anew.

And last but not least.
3. Randy, you were a friend when i needed one and for this my gartitude will always be yours.		  
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11:36pm 09/01/2006
  Its 11:36 pm.

Des and Dan and I have been talking since around 8, well Des and I since 8, all three of us since perhaps.... 10?


Anyway. Des and I are breaking up.

No joke this time, not trying to be funny.


I dont know what the future holds.

This may just be a temporary thing, we are still going to try to be friends... Going to see eachother...

Maybe with some space between us we'll learn to overcome what we cant now.

2 years...		  
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They call me Hadoken 'cause I'm down-right fierce.   
01:42pm 05/09/2005
  So, lately I've been starting to play DDR again.

Why... I couldnt tell you.

The songs are still old, and its still preatty boring, but I find myself playing anyway.

Oh well, its good exercise.

Also, when there this weekend, I met the man who owns and takes care of all the arcade machines, and Kris and I talked to him about ITG, I think he may upgrade. Which would be hawt.

For anyone who still plays DDR, I recommend:

www.ddrecall.com

Its a stat tracking site, good sheezy.		  
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12:47pm 27/08/2005
  Just beat God of War. Cool but somewhat predicatble ending.

Fun game. ;)		  
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Dont buy god of war.   
10:50am 27/08/2005
  God of War is the biggest piece of shit game to ever grace the gaming world.

It is worse than Cat in the Hat, it is worse than Muppets go to Hollywood. Taking a rusty butterknife and casturating yourself is more fun than playing this game.

'But Chris! I heard it got rave reviews, and the graphics are great!'

Yes littel one, the numbnuts of the fucking world gave it an A+, and the graphics are very preatty, in fact, their almost downright amazing, each scene is metculously crafted, and the CG is awsome. Not to mention that there are NO load points.

'Well, isnt the combat suppose to be fun?'

Why yes, its refreshingly awsome and badass.


'Well then why so bad?'

Let me clarify..... 95% Of this game, is awsome. 95% of this game, clammers, crawls, and decapitates its way onto my favorite game list.

But 5% takes a big smelly, steaming shit and rubs it in my face.

There are probably 3 sections of this game that are so impossibly Bullshit that it destorys ANY OTHER FUN that you could contemplate having.

I'll try not to present spoliers while discussing them.

The first is a section where you must jump from cliff to cliff while battling enemys. Good fun. Until you reach THE VERY END. See, the wonderful prgrammers at sony though to themselves:

"Hey... This cliff section is kinda neat, but its rather long and not very challenging... You know what we should do? Lets make it so at the very end, where you must simply drop to the ground... You know, a ledge thats 34 miles big, from 5 feet in the air makes it so that when you drop, Kratos will RANDOMLY fly off the edge... No matter what!"

Sony EXEC: "LET IT BE SO!"


You have to almost fucking GLITCH it to land correctly. Its not a moving platform, its not a narrow ledge. ITS THE FUCKING GROUND. Yet somehow, he will hump glide to the very edge of it and die.

GOOD JOB ASSHOLES!



Second part:

And entire section/level

I cant really describe this area without spoliling it for all you assholes who will decide to play anyway.

Just imgine a level filled with such cheap instant deaths, that if you dont get milli-second correct timing, your guy will die. In one hit. Forcing you to start the level over again.

Now imagine that X1000. Imagine a colemn, that spins, thats 500 feet tall, that has blades, that if you have one hair fall from your head, and touch a spike 50000 feet away, you will fall to the bottem. Now imagine the 500 foot tall column, stacked on top of anouther, and anouther and nouther, so that you have to climb 7 of them, the equivalent of a mile. Beyond perfectly.


But you know... its not that bad. After about 20minutes I concquered it.

Me: "THANK JESUS!"

*Disembowls enemys happily*

Then after round the bend, guess what I see:

ANOUTHER FUCKING COLUMN!

*Climbs 5 feet*

*Gets cut in half by a blade that is 3 feet away from me*


Me: FUCK!

*Gets spawned at the begining of level*




Sound fun? Yeah... STFU


And last but not least, THE FUCKING BOSS BATTLE. Not the fun ones. The last one.

This battle is neigh impossible, the main boss takes 3 forms, all of which are incredably cheap. 3 hits = death. The first two are horrible, but the final is just plain stupid.

But you know what? Even though it was rediculously cheap. And even though they gave me a "Special weapon" that I HAD TO USE, that delayed about a second before it would block EVERYTIME.

Even through all of that, I somehow managed to kill him. I SOMEHOW mangaged to land the final blow.

And heres what happened:

*Seemingly impossible boss pulls off a 49835734095234695834765893245234986 chain combo.*
*I stab him in the fucking eye*
*Frantic button mashing war beings*
(You have to push the 'O' button faster than him)
*Secret signal from my PS2 is sent to Sony*
*Sony man recives signal*
Sony man: OMFG! BOSS! Someone is about to defeat teh Ares!
Sony Boss: ZOMG! Quick Plan 33-A!
Sonmany: ROGER!

*Secret signal is sent back*
*I push the final button, and prepare to watch the ending to the game as my character preapres to kill the God of War*

*The two stop locking swords*
*The two stop moving*
*The two continue to grunt and scream*
*They continue to not move*

Wash, rinse, repeat.

The fucking game FROZE. On the FINAL BATTLE.

On the LAST SECTION.

After playing through that section, OVER 200 TIMES! (repsawning).




Do NOT buy god of war. Do NOT PLAY IT.

DO NOT TALK OR THINK ABOUT IT. THe very Rage in your heart will overpower you and cause you to go on a Killing Spree.

Stay away my friends, stay far far away.

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The day I bought a $30 belt   
08:08pm 10/08/2005
  Well, tommorow we leave (we being conley & family) San Fransisco. I wont bother posting much about the trip, as COnley has probably ranted everything I could say.

All I know is that this has been a very fun, and a totaly once-in-a-lifetime experiance.

Also, the people we are staying with are rich.

Rich beyond my wildest dreams.

One is the lawyer to the city, the other is the head of a law firm with 400 other lawyers.

So between them and Conley's Mom I feel I have to be on my best behavior constantly.

I did get some relife today though, as Conley, Molly (conleys little sister) and I all broke away for the entire day. Roaming San Fransisco by ourselves.

Im sad we didnt end up in the 'Tenderloin District'. And no, im not being cute or witty. Its actualy marked and labled on the tourist map as 'Tenderloin District'..

My my.

Anyway, the desk i am currently sitting at is very small and the kkeyoard is uncomfortably low. So this marks the end of my post.


PS. I miss Des.		  
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09:30pm 06/08/2005
  The Oskiburger fixes everything.  
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Man Oh Man   
04:59am 09/07/2005
 
mood: cold
So its befor 5AM and im out of bed. For those who know me, thats utterly unheard of.

BUt alas, I start my new job this monday, and I'll be routinly getting up at 4:30. So today is the first of many. Surprisingly, its truly not that bad. But not going to work and being up this early does give me alot of spare time. Almost to much. For example, I recived this letter from my mother today (and by letter, I mean of coarse, E-Mail, which is much hipper):


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Subject: Target Stores



I received this and wanted to pass this on, very interesting stuff. I know I will never shop at a Target again. SGT T


Subject: Target Stores?


Amazing Issue with Target Stores

If they have a good sale in their ads, take the ad to Wal-Mart, where they will meet the price.

Dick Forrey of the Vietnam Veterans Association wrote.

"Recently we asked the local TARGET store to be a proud sponsor of the Vietnam Veterans Memorial Wall during our spring recognition event.

We received the following reply from the local TARGET management: Veterans do not meet our area of giving.

We only donate to the arts, social action groups, gay &lesbian causes, and education."

So I'm thinking, if the Vietnam Veterans Memorial Wall and veterans in general do not meet their donation criteria, then something is really wrong at this TARGET store.

We were not asking for thousands of dollars, not even hundreds, just a small sponsorship for a memorial remembrance.

As a follow-up, I E-mailed the TARGET U.S. corporate headquarters and their response was the same.

That's their national policy.

Then I looked into the company further.

They will not allow the Marines to collect for 'Toys for Tots' at any of their stores.

And during the recent Iraq deployment, they would not allow families of employees who were called up for active duty to continue their insurance coverage while they were on military service.

Then as I dig further, TARGET is a French-owned corporation.

Now, I'm thinking again.

If TARGET cannot support American Veterans, then why should my family and I support their stores by spending our hard earned American dollars and to have their profits sent to France.

Without the American Vets, where would France be today?"

Feel free to pass this along to whomever you want.

Sincerely,

Dick Forrey
Veterans Helping Veterans

SFC David Kaiser, Kay Kaiser

Please send this on to everyone you know to let Target know how AMERICAN'S feel about their non-support of America and our support of them.





Peter W Toelle

SGT, Personnel NCO

220th Military Police Company

PH 720-847-8510 x1038

FX 720-847-8511
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Now, normaly I dont even bother to read this sort of trite, but I had nothing to do. So I did. Usualy, again, I would just shake my head or ignore it. But seeing as I had nothing to do I felt inclined to respond. Which I did. Which is seen
Here:

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First and foremost, I never belive any of these chain-letter type things.

Secondly, if target choses not to DONATE its profits to any cause, over anouther they should not be boycotted. THe fact of teh matter is, if they wanted to donate 20 billion to the the sea-slug foundation and nothing to the crippled children of america, it truly would not effect how often I would shop there.

Americans tend to think that in order to shop from a store, it must be ethical and community-spirit based. Last time I checked, I shoped at a store to buy products.

The only factors that influence where I spend my money is:

A. Price
B. Convience of location
C. Product avalible

While its true that I try my hardest not to shop at Wal-Mart, its beacuse they treat their employees like shit, not beacuse they dont donate money to chairity.

You may think that I sound cold for saying all of this, but alomost everyone else complies to these standards, they may say that they will boycott a store, but when that pool goes on sale for 34.99, bot-howdy who cares about morals!


In the orignal lette ryou sent me, the so-called veteran says that

"If TARGET cannot support American Veterans, then why should my family and I support their stores by spending our hard earned American dollars and to have their profits sent to France."

First off Target being based out of France is ubsurd, while I dont remember exactly where, its somewhere in Eastern-America, and to be turthful, I dont feel like going online just to justify it, if you truly care, you can research it yourself.

Secondly, this man states that he dosent have to spend his 'hard-earned american dollers' at target. This is true. But what he is failing to relise, is that once he does spend his 'hard-earned dollers' they become Target's Hard-Eanred money. In other words, the millions they have spent on their marketing campaigns, PR, and anything else that has made his and your seemingly arbitarary descion to buy cat litter from them and not Safeway, have paid off.

So it seems, that if he can say that he can choose to spend his money his way, it would be unfair to set a double standard and say that Target (or anyother corporation) must use their funds in any-way they dont wish to.

About now you may be thinking, "But Chris, the man was saying that Target would prefer to help Gays over Vets! Thats the real issue, they are showing no support!"

Well, let me clarify first and foremost that I honestly have no sypmathy for this man's plights. While yes, those who have fought and died should be remembered I dont belive that obssesing is the way to do it. You wnant to build a memorial? Fine. Do it. But dont become angry when others dont join your banner.

Secondly, in order for you to say that Target giving to one group over the other is wrong, you are saying that one group is more deserving than the other. That the children with no legs deserve the money more than the children with no arms. I personally dont belive that you cannot rank the needs of others, only give what you can when you can. If Target, or Microsoft, or Wal-Mart or anyone else donated to every charity or needy group, they would either go bankrupt, or make the donations miniscule in proportion.

Feel free to pass this on.

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While reviewing it now, I see there are many grammer and spelling errors, my stance is: "I dont care"

Anouther thing I was going to put in was something about how people will get pissed beacuse target would support Gays over Vets. Who CARES?! Boo-Hoo, vets obviously have enough money, they have all those little cars they drive in parades. See you stupid cars, use that to build your damn wall.

"Cut chris, gays are wrong and bad!"

STFU NUB! Im sick of hearing this, Gayz pwn your mother all night long cause' they rock so harcore. They totaly arent wrong, and the only thing that allows you to say that is your stupid relgious point of view, which is not my view, and you probably only use yours when convientet. SO SUCK IT BITCH.

*Ahem*


I think im going to make breakfest now.








ALso, yes. I know its the shiners, not the Vets who drive the tiny cars.		  
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06:43am 03/07/2005
  A man trys to post something humorous in nature and he gets torn down for his spelling and grammatical errors.

THis is not a place for Nazis! It is a place for angest and emo!


Anyway, Im making this post in the wee hours. I have been awake in said hours for.. well... an hour.


I got up at Sik this morning and jogged. OMG EXERCISE.

First off, I felt like an ass in these running shorts.

After about a quarter of a mile I felt like an ass who was fat and couldnt breath.

Woe is me.

But perserverance will pay off!

I plan to continue traning so that I may compeate in the next set of olympics.		  
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Ahem   
08:25am 02/07/2005
  Since I havent told anyone, and since my last journal consisted of me being pissed at Des. I figure I ought to come on here and explain.

Des and I broke up about a week ago. We had a huge fight, and I finally said I couldnt take it anymore.

Oh well. Not all things are ment to last.


































HAHAHAHAHA! Did you just wtf yourself? I hope so.

Anyway, no. We are still together, and never been better.

But I did get a new job, its at Lancair, and its seems to be super sweet. I told Target to like my ass and left. (Not literaly)

Anyway.

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07:04am 27/05/2005
  OMFG! Super fucking bitch.


Steady... Steady....

EDIT:

Alright, day has started better than I could have ever fucking hoped for!!

I was an idot (as usual) and stayed up late last night. But befor going to bed i had the foresite to leave a note for Des to wake me up so I could call into school.

Everything goes as planned, except for teh fact taht Des was pissyer than a bucket of piss. (Yes. Fuck you. I dont have to be creative).

And while I was still exetemly tiered cause im stupid, I did manage to get up after she came in once (while this may not seem like a big achievment, it is. Im horrible about getting up when im tiered.)

BUT Apparently, I "GLARED" at Des. So she decides to become extremly pissed.

Alright. Fine. I can deal, shes probably just mad beacuse today is going to be tough for her at work and Im staying home.

So i come out here to look up the school's phoen number so I can call in (Beacuse 2 of my classes have a policy of, "If you have an unexscused absense your grade gets dropped a letter". But its still 6:30AM so noone is awnserwing the phone.

So I put it down and wait. I try a few more times. ANd Des says something to the effect of "Stop being a fucking pansy and just skip."

While I would normaly laugh at something like this, it pissed me off more than anything. Beacuse she was so fucking hostile about it.

After 20 more minutes of her being pissed I finally bite the bullet and ask what the fuck is wrong with her.

Apparently, shes pissed beacuse not only did I glare at her while sleeping (Hmm, what is it with EVERYONE? When I am ALSEEP, I dont not control my MOTOR-FUNCTIONS, its was more likely a STRUGGLe to OPEN my EYES). BUt I used mt computer.

Yeah. My computer.

I left the note on the keyboard, beacuse her computer is broken ATM, and she uses mine to do stuff. And while I usualy dont mind, when im trying to get something done I dont fucking care if she wants to browse the WoW forums.

After I get the number she goes in the bathroom to get ready and I make the call. Its no dice so I sit back down and start killing time online. She dosent say anything and sits down and starts reading.

Apparently shes pissed beacuse I didnt let her use the comp.


Hmmm, she could have easily mentioned ANYTHING about it and iw ould have been all "Oh, yeah sorry. Still half asleep and wasent thinking."

But instead she fucking held it in and exploded at me.

So at 7 I make the call again. And the big-bitch Coney awnserws, and I tell her im not felling well, she replys snidely that "That wont work today" I play it off, I dont give a shit.

But this means that theres a good chance that she wont exscuse it tommorow.


THe only thing that could make this morning BETTER is if the fucking BREAD-LADY from safeway busted in and stabbed me with a fucking KNIFE.


WOO FUCKING WWHOO!!!!\

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Hey Foo Fighters!   
10:32pm 26/05/2005
  So yes, its been months and months since I last posted, and I know most of you probably think i died or stopped caring about you or something.

Jeez, you people have no self confidence huh?

Maybe you should get some friends?


Anyway.

The truth of the matter is I have been super super busy lately. My average day consists of waking up at 7 or 7:30, going to school, coming home and changing and maybe playing wow or screw around online for 20min. THen going to work, then coming home anywhere from 10-11:30 and going to bed.

My life basicly sucks right now.

But school will be ending very soon, and I am excited. I have tommorow off, and its seinor skip day, so I am very excited. I havent had a day off from work in 9 days, and its been much much longer than that snice I've truly had to do nothing all day. I can hardly wait.

On a side note, is anyone good with flash? I have some questions.

Meh. Im pretty sure Des is pissed at me right now. She went to be about half an hour ago and I didnt go with her.

usualy, I feel too guilty to stay up, so I go to bed when she does. Cause' we very rarely get to see each other accept for night time.

But tonight I just want to be able to goof off and have fun. I really didnt know how to say that to her so I just asked if she would mind if I stayed up. She gave the typical female response of "No" but with infliction that stated that she cared alot and was mad just beacuse I asked. I suppose it didnt help that about 5 mintues later Daniel walked out to get food (Which I made tonight, very yummy) and I asked if he wanted to scrim. Which probably means she thinks I wanted to play CS more than be with her. Which isnt true. Its just hard to not be able to do anything.

And she knows this, and she feels really bad that Im constantly working, but she feels just as bad not being able to see me very often. Which makes me worry about the future with her in Digipen, i mean shes going to go to school 8+ hours a day, then come home and have hours of homework, and I'll have to work a full tiem job, if not two to be able to pay rent. I mean yeah, shes going to have student loans, but those are designed to pay for your school fees and books. Not your food and rent. =(

*SIgh* I dont know, life is though right now. Tough but good. I am happy, and I do love her. So that makes it worth it.

I just wish there was a way to say "Look, Im sorry. Im tired and hungry, I feel bad cause I bought a candybar at work we cant afford and I just want to play a video game." Without making it sound like I dont love her and dont want to be with her.

I dont know. Relationships are tough too I guess. But its also worth it. =P

*Sigh*
Im not sure what I want to do tommorow, I really wanted to like... GO to Omsi or the Zoo or something, but I cant afford it and noone I know wants to go (at least out of the 5 random people I asked at school).

I'll probably end up waking up late (though I want to get up early) and going to target to get my check.

THen i'll probably come home and play WoW for 8 hours.

I both do and dont want to do that. I would like to go film or be a spaz or go walking in the woods, but it just seem worth the effort. Meh. Maybe I'll regress and go play DDR or something. That would be funny. Me sweating and probably puking cause Im fat again.


Meh.

Hmmm. I think Im going to try to do more of the art-type stuff I was doing on DA awhile back.

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LJ becomes a riot.   
09:30pm 07/04/2005
  Wow, such quickly esqalating arguments over one post. Oh the fun of it all.

I cannot wait til' my little noski-burger gets here. <3

As for the drama, it actualy fits in with something I wanted to say befor Oski-Woski shows up.

Last time he came up was an absolute blast, no question hands down fun. And I expect this time to be no differnt... But there will be some changes.

First off, I know everyone loves Mr.Man-pickle, and that your all dying to see him. But as much as it makes your loins burn with fury to know he's in town, you cant all spend the night here like last time. It was fun, but it was a bit much. I would say something like 'one person a night' but that would make Noski choose who he wants to hang out with, which could hurt feelings. So I think we're just going to say 'noone stays'. Obviously this wont be in effect all the time. During the weekend we'll ahve to have a huge sleepover and have pizza and play video games and have a giant orgy, but only one night, maybe two... Not everynight like last time.

Also, about all the so-called 'drama', I apperciate feelings were hurt and tempers flared, but we dont need that in our household. I relise most people are over it, which is good. But if you still feel the need to have a bitch-fight, please take it outside. In fact, please take it down thte block so our neighbors wont think we have tard-burgers staying with us.

Nuff' said.

I really cannot wait til' he gets here. I've got the bed warmed up and fresh batterys at out disposle.

We <3 you.		  
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I should write a song: Oh its 2AM and wim a loser and on LJ, my friends all laugh but i do it anyway   
03:28am 04/04/2005
  Anyway, musical skills aside; I've been meaning to update for quite awhile.

It seems alot has happened in the past few weeks, if not the past few days. But when I sit here and try to organize my thoughts, it dosent seem quite as epic.

Hmm, where to start?

Well first off, I've found out alot about myself. Belive it or not its true. Some things I kind of knew while others are a bit more of a surprise.

For example, I knew that I enjoyed my job at Sears very much, exactly why, I wouldnt have been able to say. But covering someone's shift in electronis at Target has revealed the awnser. [You'll have to forgive typo's and spelling errors. Its dark and my touch typing skills are not very good] I love selling. Pure and simple. After going through a sale a state of almost euphoric quality embraces me. I feel high (or what I assume feeling high feels like). Target in general stresses me out alot. When I go there I always feel a tinge of dread, and when I leave I feel very tense. If I close (anywhere from 10-12, depending how messy the store is), i often will not be able to sleep until 1am or later. I just cant relax. But when I covered the camera/sound boat (the electronis portion of the store) it was compleatly differnt. I still had to do all the usual stuff I do on the salesfloor (putting away items, facing product helping people ect. ect.) but I felt very relaxed and energized. I didnt make any huge sales. But i did greet a customer and set him up with a TV, dvd player and a few accesories [as well as a target card] before the night was over, and it felt great. I practicly was skipping.

Having a job that you somewhat hate also makes you apperciate life alot more. Im not trying to be snide or sarcastic when I say this, i mean it seincerly. Last week I went on a walk with my mom in the woods (more on mother relations later). And I just felt very at peace with myself. The fact that I was walking, and didnt have a destination was bliss. No CAFS to worry about, no ass-backwards redneck to try to talk to. Nothing. Just peace and the sound of a river. I think im going to try to make a habit of walking/hiking
, hopefully once a week.

I have also come to terms with somethings about myself that I relise I cannot change, I know now that I shouldnt try to be something Im not. This hit home when I was in Psychology, we were arguing the validity of Nature vs Nurture, and Valerga (the teacher) but a small comic on the overhead. It depicted two cutesy devils in hell, fire an all. One said something about his alchoholic father, crackhead mother and growing up in the ghetto being the reason he was in hell. While the other dvil relpied "really? I guess I was just born with bad DNA." Or something like that...

I dont know. I think im going to stop trying to change who I am and be happy.


Things at home have been very nice recently too. For a long time in awhile, Des and I havent fought in days. Things have been very pleasent. Sitting here reflecting, it seems the old saying "Absense makes the heart grow fonder" is true. I often have to work late, and Des will be in bed by the time I get home. Which is very hard on her. So the time we do get together seems speacial. Its almost like when we were first starting dating, we stayed up til' 2AM or later together, either online or sitting in my room (on school days no less), we just cant seem to get enough of eachother.

I think the fact that we both have jobs now really helps. This was the last month we could have kept out apartment with out borrowing money from our parents. So we cut it very close. And soon, Daniel will have a job also, so we can both start building up our delpleated savings accounts again. This month will be tight, there is no doubt. But tight is alright, we're staying out of the red.

My days seem very busy. More so than I belive they have ever been befor. I rarely have time to myself (besides these late night encounters), I often will get up in time to shower and go to school, aftwards I come home and eat then leave for work. I do homework if I have to, or play WoW for an hour or so. Then its off to bed. On my days off I seem to be doing errands and chores. And I dont think I've had a compleate day off since I started working (unless you count easter).

As I mentioned earlyer I'm talking wiht my mom. To those of you who may not know me as well, this is a very huge thing. When we lived together it was a very ugly site when we were in the same room. I just coul;dnt stand the woman. And i wont make it seem like we're suddenly best friends, I still think she is very irrisponisble in many ways, but Marvin has been good for her. We talk semi often, and she has invited me over for various things.

Anouther thing, which may not seem very importent; is I have recently started listening to music again. i think in one of my last entries I talked about spiderbait, but to be honest, I havent found a "new" band in several years. I've been creaming my manties over Modest Mouse. I love them. I also have been listening to an interesting genre of music called "Ambient/Acid Lounge". On a side note, what would all you classify Space channel 5 music as? Its not a good example, but I really really enjoy that style of music. Ive asked around and gotten everything from Funk to New age. A classic riff style would be a bass/guitar bustin out a beat int he backround with some cool drums while a fly/sick organ starts jammin a kickin' solo (how amny other 'hip' terms can I use i wonder?).

Anyway... Music is good.

I've also been feeling more creative lately. I'm working with Drew and Sean on a webseries called EXP. If you want to check it out head over to: www.heroburger.net
There really isnt anything of significance up right now, just a few trailers/sneak peeks. But we almost have our first few episodes scirpted out and are currently figuring out casting and locations. Give me a ring a ling or a ding a shing if your interested in helping. (Please relsise most parts will be confined to moshing in a crowed).

Besides EXP, I've been writing alot lately. I also started going on deviatnart again. bveen playing with photography and light alot. Check it out if you want. Username is Wetdog or w3td0g or something like that...

I also have been looking at colledges, something I've been putting off beacuse, well... frankly I have absolute shit for grades. We're talkin <2.5 So I just didnt want to deal with it. But this semester has been differnt... I have 3 A's and a C. Something I could never befor claim in my life. An honest to god A that lasted for more than a week.

I've been looking at the Art institure of Portland, I want to look into their Digital media classes. Though in all reality I should be looking for stuff in Seattle, cause' Des' has decided to shoot for Digi pen again. [Theres absoultly no fucking way I can get in there].
~ Change gears ~


The only thing I could honestly say that hasent been well recently, is my sleeping habits. This is probably the third or forth night this week where I simply cannot sleep. Tonight I fell asleep around 8, and work up around 11. Laid there for an hour and said fuck it. Im not sure what Im going to do about it. The recent time change certinaly didnt help anything; nor did the fact that yesterday I closed @ target, and had to be there at 7 today. (Which really p'od me, beacuse the store dosent open til' 8). [Though I suppose once I got there I was fine with it... Just something about waking up bitch ass early.]

Hmm, anouther few bad things surface.

Lately I've been noticing that I've been showing alot more dyslexic-esq symptoms than usual. I dont think that I am. But its starting to get annoying. When typing I'll often leave out entire words, or move them around or type the wrong thing. When writing, 'd' and 'b' is something that I have to physicly stop and think about befor I can continue. I just cant seem to get the right one down...

Anouther growing conern is my health. Last summer I couldnt eat anything without feeling extreamly naustioes or having horrible 'stomach problems' later on. These things are starting to come back... with a vengence. Beacuse of this I've been eating less than usual. Which seems to be almost worse. Beacuse it feel very faint/ increadbly irratable. It gets bad... FOr example, if I dont eat breakfest I cannot stand up without nearly blacking out. When working at target, it seems that if i go to long without eating, messing with product on the bottem shelves becomes perilos, beacuse when standing upright, i compleatly lose my balance. I have to grab a shelve to keep from toppling over.

I dont know whats wrong. But it sucks. And to be honest, we dont have the money to see a doctor. There are much much more pressing issues that must be adressed first. I havent really told Des much about this, beacuse theres nothing we can do at the moment and it will only make her worry. [Dont get the wrong picture, she knows it exists. I just havent... embelished.]


I've been writing for nearly half an hour / forty-five minutes now, its almost 3:20 and I do have school tommorow. I dont think i'll suffer too much though, I have tommorow off. weather permiting, I'd like to go walking or flying a kire (des' mom got me one for easter). im thinking of asking Des to go with me, butim not sure if she would want to. She walks alot at work, I doubt she would want to do it on her day off.

This is much more than I anticipated to write... And it feels like I left something out... Hmm. Ah well, I should probably go try to sleep again.

Good night my friends.

Good night.		  
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Holy cow.   
10:36pm 28/03/2005
  So des' laptop crapped out, some short in the system board that caused her to runf off battery sometimes finally came to a head. She cant boot the thing now. She can get it fixed, but it may cost up to $700. I personaly think she should just invest in a new system for that much. But she is adament about keeping her laptop. Which is fine, its her call.

But int he mean time seh's going to be using my old system. She wont need it for much, the biggest system hog being WoW. She has everything she needs with two exceptions. A new etherne card, which will only cost about $10. And she could stand to get some more RAM. I threw in what I had laying around, but it only adds up to about 258 mb, I think she'll need at least 512 to be able to do anything properly in WoW.

So if any of you have a stick of PCI RAM laying around, be cool and let her borrow it, maybe buy it (I can always use it for the MAME cabinet when she gets her system back up [thats what PC shes using now]).

She is also using my until now main moniter.

Which means I had to yank out the fucking huge moniter that was donated by the school to my cabinet and use it for myself.

Oh darn. =P

Its incredible. I love it.

I have to move my head to look at differnt spots on the screen. And my arms are sore from typing this beacuse I have to sit up straight to see.

Bwahahahaha.		  
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EASTER MOTHER F***ERS!   
12:53am 27/03/2005
 
mood: pissed off
I love Jesus Christ!

Its true! Thanks to this man (real or not) I dont have to go to work tommorow!

Go Jesus!



On the other hand, I just got back from work.

Which is fucking rediculous. Working til' 1 am? Not cool. Especial since i went in at 2.

For those who cant do math, thats an 11 hour day.

Also Cathy, a leader type person, stank like shit the entire night.

WIPE YOUR ASS OLD LADY!


Fuck Target. When is Best Buy getting here?		  
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11:22pm 20/03/2005
  Bitch & moan.
Bitch & moan.		  
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Bambulence   
07:39am 17/03/2005
  Happy St. Patty's all you skanky shylock friends o' mine.


EDIT:

Oh ham dizzle!

I just got back from the Holiday express, where I got interviewed for best buy. The whole thing seemed kinda seedy at first... what with meeting at a hotel... But it went great.

Apparently theres 3 interviews you have to go to. I had the first and second today. And was going to have the third, but the boss-man who did it was busy. So they said they'd call me. And if I hadn't heard from them by monday, to call them.

All good signs.

It looks like if I get in there I'll be part of their 'Geek Squad'. Namely in the digital area, selling cameras and phones and whatnot.

I felt good in there. I think making friends with John (the guy I met in the target food court) really helped. Its funny, at one point John and the other guy who interviewed me were nicely arguing about where I would go if hired, John wanted me in Home Theater, while the other guy wanted me in PC's :P.

I think I might get this job.		  
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ZOMG WTF BBQ!   
11:13pm 15/03/2005
  So I just got back from work. Apparently when they say you get off at 10, it means you get off at 11, or midnight, or 2 in th emorning.


They must be on target time or something.		  
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